About this track

“Emancipation” and “Reticence” are the youngest songs on the album, having been written in 2005. (Most everything else has a genesis in 1999.) As such, they clearly show I was running out of ideas.

I was banging out the chord progressions of both songs, thinking they were separate entities, but I realized they were too similiar in nature. So I decided they would share the same chorus and segue into each other.

I felt too lazy to come up with a middle section for “Emancipation” so I quoted “The One to Make You Whole”. It’s a gimmick I learned from Tears for Fears, who would often inject a quote of one song into another, not necessarily from the same album.

Even the lyrics are pretty generic. Oh, not one but two break-up songs! At the very least, I had to write from the perspective of each character in the relationship. No, I can’t say I’m speaking from much experience. I also quoted other songs in the lyrics — “Melt”, “All the Times I Remember”.

For a long time, I never really warmed up to “Emancipation”. It just seemed to miss something or other. I fiddled with the arrangements over and over, and I re-recorded the main vocals a number of times. When I finally added background vocals, the song made more sense, and I like it a lot more now.

Lyrics

There was a time I thought you could do no wrong
There was a time I could believe
It was a time I drew all my strength from you
It was a time you could love me

Now that time is all but a dream
Now that time is not what it seems
Now that time means nothing to me
And I know I should feel better

There was a moment when I could find the truth
As it turned out the truth found me
There was a moment when I knew what to feel
It was a moment I felt free

Now I'm here with nowhere to go
Now I'm here with no one I know
Now I'm here with nothing to show
And I know I feel much better
On my own

All the times I remembered to breathe
All the times I remembered to speak
All the times I remembered to dream
Nothing else feels so much better

Now I'm here with somewhere to go
Now I'm here with people I know
Now I'm here with something to show
And I know I feel much better

There was a time I thought you could do no wrong
It was a time you won't believe
There was a moment when I could find the truth
As it turned out the truth found me

Now I'm here
Without you
Better now
Feeling free

Credits

  • Produced and engineered by Greg Bueno
  • Recorded in the Closet, 2005-2011, Austin, TX and the Closet West 2013, Seattle, WA
  • Photography by Lauren Tarbel
  • Cover design by Greg Bueno
  • Published by Shinkyoku Advocacy (ASCAP)
  • Thanks to Lauren Tarbel and James R. McGirr

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  • Release date: October 08, 2013

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